My Experience with Zonpower

March - December 3, 1997

Dr. Frank R. Wallace
C/O Neo-Tech Publishing Co. Inc.
850 South Boulder Highway
Henderson, Nevada 89015

Dear Dr. Wallace:

In early February of 1995, after reading Zon 2000, I actually succeeded in doing what you explained to be possible: I cured my mind of all mysticism and irrationality, discovered Cassandra's Secret -- became Zon you might say-and entered the Civilization of the Universe where I lived for several weeks before being slowly and very unpleasantly pulled back to this anticivilization by things which I foresaw.

And, although I have managed to make a few brief return visits, for the last two and a half years I have been working to learn what I need, and meet the full requirements of rationality in order to return and stay there forever. I thought you might be interested to hear my account.

In this letter I would like to elaborate on several aspects which you, as far as I know, have not fully explained in your writings. If you contemplate these points I believe you will become convinced of my authenticity. It is also my hope that these clarifications may be of some small benefit to you; as your work has so benefited me.

With that said, I shall describe some of my experiences, and elaborate on the points which I believe I can clarify. Perhaps it would be best for me to begin by explaining how I managed to cure my mind and visit the Civilization of the Universe -- it was quite an awesome and mind-blowing experience, as I'm sure I don't need to tell you:

I have to admit that much of your Cassandra's Secret pamphlet had sounded far-fetched to me at first, but some of the information seemed to confirm some of my own personal observations about this world which I hadn't ever seen anyone address before, and this intrigued me enough to order the manuscript.

It was really the first few sections in Zon 2000, and extrapolating their real psychiatric implications that led me to try an experiment so as to test your claims. The experiment took the form of what seemed like playing a mind game with myself, but which I soon discovered to actually be a psychiatric procedure as real as any medical operation.

Just the idea of an infectious mental disease that afflicts everyone was an extremely disturbing concept to contemplate seriously. And yet I sensed that, science fiction-like though it seemed, this was the only way for a modern mind to try to understand the evil of this surreal and crazy world.

The fact that this world is much like an insane asylum that has been taken over by the inmates was an aspect which I inferred from Zon 2000, and was the starting (or, you could say, the jumping off) point for my experiment. I was pleased to see you use this analogy at the end of "Zonpower from Cyberspace", which I received shortly after my return.

It's a very old and grim cliché, but I found that this insane asylum analogy is, like the "Treasure Map from Another World" section in The Neo-Tech Protection Kit, a powerful metaphoric tool for understanding, and actually curing one's mind of the disease. And I believe that this is what everyone on earth, including one's self, really fears.

The experiment evolved from your statement that the anticivilization must be "cut away", and that one must "consciously resist every dishonest rationalization that could make one turn in blindness from Cassandra's Secret". But was, more specifically, a process whereby I faced a series of dreaded facts about myself and this world, became clearly aware of the nature of my own ego or pseudo-self, and consciously rejected it.

This required a state of extreme concentration in pursuing your theory, and a very uncomfortable emotional (as opposed to mental) breakdown into what I understand you now, very aptly, call profound honesty.

In what way, I wondered, could I myself, like everyone else, be irrational and deluded? My own honesty confirmed that it was the phenomenon of rationalizing, and of not being my real self. That I, like everyone else, had created a character to "get along" and deal with a world that I really loathed.

Basically, I pursued a process of questioning whether I was rationalizing and still had an ego. With each question I wondered what it would be like to give up that particular part of my ego that I had come so much to think of as myself. Upon consciously rejecting that part of "me" I would discover the wonderful sane alternative and way that I was originally meant to be by the Universe, and what I have come to term Ultimate Reality.

After several hours and the peeling off of many fundamental philosophic and psychological layers, I reached a point where I could honestly say that I was no longer rationalizing and was free of all ego.

I remember then seeing the disease as being a very real computer-like virus that I'd finally gotten out of my head and, after what had seemed like performing ten hours of micro-surgery on my mind, gleefully annihilating it with an act of will which I used like a metaphysical sledge hammer.

I realized that I was no longer imprisoned in a rationalizing bubble of ego. I knew that I was in a wonderful new world, and yet also felt like I was finally home. I clearly saw the two distinct worlds in the same way that I you made the analogy in the "Treasure Map" chapter, and experienced things in very much the way that you describe in "You Will Become Zon".

I could elaborate a great deal on the actual procedure, but here I think it is important to describe a few of my psychiatric observations:

In addition to the schizophrenia, mass rationalizing, hypnotic state, and mystical bubbles that you describe, another psychiatric aspect that I clearly saw when out of the anticivilization was that everyone does literally have a split personality.

The two distinct and separate personalities are the real self and a pseudo-self which exist in different degrees in people, but must classify everyone as having a schizophrenic split personality. (I believe that the pseudo-self can then have multiple personalities itself, but this is irrelevant here.)

The split personality is what originates in childhood when people first begin to develop an alter-ego in order to deal with the irrationalities of their parents and teachers (as you say). This alter-ego continues to grow and, in a manner very much like method acting, to increasingly take on a life of its own, displacing the original human being.

It is this very real split personality that I believe needs to be treated and cured. The ego or pseudo-self has to be psychologically and philosophically cut away and consciously discarded so that one can become their real ego or self, and thereby enter the Civilization of the Universe.

The process of mutating into a humanoid is literally a process of soul selling or consciousness selling. It is a barter deal with the anticivilization whereby the cowardly consciously renounce aspects of their humanity in order to gain the inhuman abilities necessary to succeed in this world -- by choice, they become criminally insane.

When cured of the disease one can clearly see the way that the humanoids coerce and manipulate this irrational side of people in all social and working situations. Objectively, they appear as really hideous monsters, like ghoulish vampires preying on their innocent -- or, not so innocent -- victims. For one also clearly sees the way that almost everyone does this to some extent, in some area of their lives.

The spectacle would almost be too ghastly a sight to see, but from the safe distance of the other world and with the power from one's new perception, all of the humanoids and their evil actually seem quite amusing. Yes, you really can "puff them away" and laugh them out of your new life, if not existence.

Something that I found surprising was the way that the facial expressions of people betray all of their secret thoughts and motives when you have a mind that's clear enough to see them. The expressions of the humanoids, as well as those who are just having an irrational episode, look strikingly similar to those of wild animals, some even reptiles. The fact that they are attempting to survive by the method of lower creatures is so stark. But again, even this seems comical from the perspective of the other world.

When in the Civilization of the Universe, I found that it is the nature of sanity to react with amusement to the absurdities of irrationality and the entire anticivilization. This, of course, does not mean that one enjoys seeing such things -- far from it -- and this is something that one is only in the position to do when free of its influence. Within the anticivilization such a reaction would obviously be psychotic.

The longer that one stays in the other world the more the anticivilization seems to fade away from view. I know there is another aspect with the physics of getting into different time-space coordinates where one simply doesn't encounter undesirable humanoids; but on the more mundane level, I found that one simply lives and acts with full rationality, and this is enough for other people in the anticivilization to sense and be beclouded or frightened away by. One also, almost inadvertently, tends to knock many of those that one encounters down (as you say).

The philosophic, psychological, and language differences really are quite profound and make communication even with loved one's impossible most (but not all) of the time. People sometimes stumble into the Civilization of the Universe without ever realizing anything other than that they felt good for a while, and I found it possible to share some of these moments. Under certain circumstances I also believe it would be possible to bring a loved one into the other world.

One tends to treat family and friends like little children to the extent that these relationships remain possible, for even though one feels much like a child again one's self, in relation to those in the anticivilization, one is like a very wise old man. I did have great care and compassion for people as their real selves, but absolutely none for humanoids or the egos that almost everyone has.

I saw how this would have changed if I had continued on a bit further but, as joyous and wonderful as the Civilization of the Universe was, I sometimes felts very sad and lonely being There-almost like being on a wonderful vacation alone with no one to share it. However, I believe this was a symptom of a latent irrationality -- an uncut thread that would eventually pull me back.

I have to confess that much of your physics goes over my head. In your writings you make many references to "controlling existence" and even to creating your own universe, and although I did sense that things were heading in that general direction -- of increasing control over everything so to speak -- I don't honestly know if or when such things would be possible or desirable for us.

I do take your point about the nature of consciousness, and of the ether field in general, but this is a place where I think you make a leap that may be quite valuable ultimately, but which skips over the more immediate and practical possibilities of Zonpower leaving me, at least, in the dust.

From my experience, I found Zonpower not to be control over all of existence, but of only one aspect of existence -- that of events. I had the extraordinary ability to make seemingly extraordinary and highly unlikely things happen.

But, I also saw the material world to be even more starkly real and fixed (as you say) than I'd previously perceived it. I certainly did not enter, or turn this one into a kind of dream world where I could transform objects into different things, as might be interpreted from the phrase "you will control existence".

Even if thoughts are theoretically transformable into things, my consciousness was still a very long way from wanting, much less comfortably wielding such control over existence. I know you also state that "you will control all that affects you..." and this I can completely confirm.

The control that I did gain over the events of reality was quite staggering. I found Zonpower to be a wondrous thing to use as long as I kept it to events that I was honestly comfortable with causing. However, it was easy to become I disoriented and lose my sense of reality when I began experimenting with it out of curiosity, which I did while being drawn back to the anticivilization.

Although I didn't question it, and simply accepted Zonpower when I was in the Civilization of the Universe, I now find it a paradoxical aspect as to whether one is actually seeing or causing these events with it, which I do not yet quite understand. From my experiments it certainly seemed like both.

What I, personally, would be very interested to see is a more detailed explanation of how consciousness can control events, as I think that would help me to feel more comfortable wielding Zonpower, and returning permanently. The closest that I can get to an answer, is that there is an underlying perfection to the Universe that one wouldn't expect, but which resolves this.

I don't know if this is worth mentioning, but the process of affecting events was that I would first wonder what would please me, then realize or become conscious of something that could be and, finally, use a very casual act of will (as if to say "let this be so") to bring it into reality and make it happen. I don't believe that the forcefulness of willing has anything to do with either the speed or magnitude of the event being caused, the only criteria or "limiting" factor seems to be what one is comfortable with.

I found that what pleases one and brings joy becomes the primary criteria of rationality itself when one is cured of mysticism, and determines everything that one does. And, I also found that to become Zon really means to become I an Agent of the Universe, of Ultimate Reality and Justice, acting on earth.

Your statement that civilizations can be created by billions of people or by a single individual, and your inference that when one becomes Zon one will build a new one is highly pertinent. When one enters the Civilization of the Universe, almost the first thing that one does is to begin building a new civilization for one's self and for those who will someday join one.

It may seem paradoxical that one can already be in another world or civilization and still need to build it, but there are two different contexts here which I believe need further explanation: When one becomes Zon, one is immediately in another world because one's mind has made the fundamental differentiation between rationality and irrationality. One is in a wonderful world where one only admires and experiences beauty, while ignoring the ugly and irrational.

This, or course, does not mean that one has blinders or rose colored glasses on, to the contrary, it is only because one has full knowledge of irrationality and has fully integrated how to avoid it that one is in the position to ignore the ugly anticivilization.

A point that I would make is that mental integration is actually an automatic process after one makes a differentiation, and that it is a matter of consciously recognizing the fundamental difference between rationality and irrationality (which does, I believe, require a psychiatric operation) that automatically integrates all of the aspects which you have written about and puts one in the Civilization of the Universe.

This differentiation is also what makes the anticivilization seem like such a goofy swirl of nothing, as you put it; for one does control all that affects one, and quickly forgets all pain and suffering. One knows why, when hen one stops to think, but most of the time peoples' actions and concerns seem baffling and somewhat amusing -- when one even notices.

This is another point that I believe I can clarify: One ceases to experience pain and suffering because one has learned the fundamental lesson to be learned by human beings, and is above learning anything here the hard way. That lesson is to accept adversity -- which is a law onto itself -- joyously. When one does this as one's real-self, with a completely conscious, mystic and ego-free mind, one embarks on a wondrous, never-ending adventure where the emotional spectrum is shifted from pleasure-suffering, to pleasure-ecstasy.

When in the Civilization of the Universe, one has an almost indescribable ability to appreciate both the beauty of nature and the creations of man. One also feels the joyous desire to create more things of beauty for one's self and for those who can actually appreciate them; but, not to share them indiscriminately as you seem to imply in some places.

In the context of bringing the Civilization of the Universe to a personal and localized point on earth, I think that one of the best examples of someone trying to do this (but obviously lacking the other context of becoming Zon), was George Vanderbilt who constructed the Biltmore estate in North Carolina. If you are not familiar with him there is an excellent episode of an A&E television series called America's Castles concerning it.

Although he inherited his wealth, George Vanderbilt attempted to create a world of his own based, I believe, on a very honest and just vision of the way things can and should be. In my view George Vanderbilt represents the other half to the James J. Hill story, and is an example of what the Civilization of the Universe will really be like. It is also what it is like for one's self when one becomes Zon and begins building one's own civilization-regardless of the scale or style of architecture.

I had several experiences of seeing into the future while I was in the Civilization of the Universe, and I found this phenomenon to be, perhaps the most amazing of all.

The ability to see into the future is, I am now convinced, accomplished through the use of the pineal gland. So, there would appear to be some truth to the claims of mystics concerning this "Third Eye". However, what they have ever been able to see through it with their mystically infected minds I would be highly skeptical of. If anything, I suspect it is just the doom and gloom of their own end.

What I saw in my "visions" were certainly not angels, or mystic beings. I had visions not of a spirit world, but of a wondrous technological age -- an age that was not cold and sterile (as I used to imagine it), but that had the same, if not greater, kind of romantic feeling and expression in its technological creations as did the Victorian styles of the Industrial Revolution.

I saw some really wondrous things, and had the opportunity to observe many interesting aspects about our world of the future which I could elaborate on at some point if you'd like to hear, but I can say that I came away convinced that we truly stand on the brink of a Golden Age.

I did see some geological upheavals taking place too, but this was far from gloom and doom for me. It was as if a wonderful and invigorating wind was sweeping the earth and cleaning away this whole evil civilization.

But, just as fascinating to me as the things which I observed, was the process by which I observed them. Again, this certainly did not seem like what one would imagine of an occult or religious vision experience, a hallucinogenic drug experience, or even a natural/biological phenomenon.

The entire experience (which I could also elaborate on in greater detail), I can only describe as having a computer graphics-like aspect about it. It seemed very much like my mind was actually "plugging in" to some advanced kind of computer.

I have to admit that I had found some of your statements concerning a "universal computer" and "five dimensional transceiver technologies" rather far-fetched before experiencing this. To be honest, I still have trouble accepting those apparent implications of this aspect, and tend to think of the source of these visions in terms of just being the universal "ether field" or some kind of future memory of the universe.

Incidentally, you ask how this universal computer might be accessed, and I can tell you that it is done simply by wondering in that state of profound honesty. When there, all one needs to do is wonder what would please one to know, and the answer will come to you. Or, in the case of seeing into the future, wonder what would please one to see when lying down to rest.

As you say, "certainty evolves from fully integrated honesty", and wondering is all that it takes to get answers one is honestly certain of. One knows what answers would please one to know, and that it would be irrational to seek any others. One knows that an infected subconscious can no longer mislead or delude one, that one's mind is in complete harmony with the Universe, and can get any answers or make any contacts that would be rational.

I'd mention here that one's entire sleeping life is also transformed after one's mind has been cured of mysticism. One seems to enter and stay in a higher, semi-conscious state when asleep without experiencing the incoherent (irrational) dreams that we are so used to having, and which have much more of an adverse affect on us than is generally believed.

It is quite impossible to describe just how wonderfully bright and crystal clear one's mind physically feels when completely disinfected of mysticism. The mental sensation alone is an ecstatic experience beyond compare, and to begin experiencing life with that kind of a conscious mind can seem almost too joyous to bear.

If entering the Civilization of the Universe is an experience that's wonderful beyond description, I can tell you that being pulled back to this one is equally horrible beyond description.

I had foreseen that social and economic factors would soon overcome me and pull me back to the anticivilization if I didn't push on and firmly establish myself in the other world. I had recognized that an erroneous kind of love and sense of duty (altruism) was the last remaining latent irrationality I had, and that it was a lesson I'd have to learn the hard way before I could return and live happily ever after in my story, so to speak.

But, whereas I'd managed to leave this world in a single night, the process of being pulled back was drawn out over a period of several months as I struggled and "popped" back and forth between the two worlds, holding on to less and less time there as the months past.

The sensations were those of my mind feeling nauseous like a very sick stomach, of being filled with cement, compressed, and pulled down into a cesspool-not very pleasant at all. I could also feel the virus actually re-entering my mind, and lodging in the pineal gland -- this is the last place that it leaves during disinfection, and the first place that it seems to go upon re-infection with the disease.

In addition to being a kind of universal receptor and the organ through which one can see into the future, the pineal gland also seems to be the connector that integrates the two hemispheres of the brain. The virus, very insidiously, disconnects the two hemispheres from this point, and thereby creates the I bicameral effect.

It is also from this point that the disease seems to scatter the integration-blockers down, in a descending pyramid manner, throughout the conscious and subconscious mind (both hemispheres) creating the jig-saw puzzle/islands of knowledge effect that you describe.

Although I have yet to see your latest "Profound Honesty" manuscript, I believe that this "Treasure Map" section really does need to be included in future editions of your main body of work.

After removing the virus, I noticed that one's sense of self seems to shift to that higher point above the normal conscious mind -- which then functions primarily to perceive reality instead of to think, and the sub-conscious which then works purely as a memory storage bank.

I have a number of observations concerning this and, although I have yet to read Julian Jaynes book -- based on your summary, I think that although the gist of it is correct, some aspects need to be more properly squared with your work.

I don't know exactly what your experience was, or how close you presently are to entering the Civilization of the Universe and becoming Zon, but I understand that you are now working on something called "Quantum Crossing".

As you describe so many aspects of and state so many times in your writings, this is an infectious mental disease that afflicts everyone on earth. And, from your writings as well as from my own experience I am convinced that if one wants to actually cure the disease of irrationality in one's self as well as in others, that one must approach it in new psychiatric terms.

Ayn Rand said that psychology is a science that is still in it's infancy and hasn't found a Plato much less an Aristotle. I believe it is a field that's in a state much like Medieval alchemy as compared to the chemistry that it can be in the future. I also believe that it is the only specialized science that can help those who, like myself, had been blindly fighting the anticivilization, and may now be struggling to fully grasp your work.

The method that I discovered is a rather delicate operation, and my memories of the exact chronology are still fragmented from having allowed myself to be drawn back and re-infected by the altruistic aspect of mysticism, (which I suspect may also be the snag that has held you). But, I have many notes concerning it, and I have been contemplating the idea of developing a written cure for the disease of mysticism as I disinfect my own mind once again.

One of the first tasks in presenting it would be to disentangle and clearly define psychology's concepts and terminology, beginning with the word "ego" which has contradictory meanings and immediately presents a problem. I'm certain that the phenomenon of "ego" and split-personality are the key to such a cure. (I would also point out that referring to Joan of Arc and Jesus as schizophrenics when they were both more sane is also confusing when, technically, it is everyone else who were and are schizophrenics.)

Then, the task would be to bridge the gap between Ayn Rand's start with her "psycho-epistemology" and your finish with Zon/Cassandra's Secret. Such a work would need to fill in the details (or, actually the fundamentals) of what real mental health is, and to present the step-by-step procedure for eradicating the disease of mysticism and "ego" from one's mind.

I believe that this could help to bring more people across into the Civilization of the Universe than the handful who might have popped across like myself.

But, of course, no one could have gotten there at all if you hadn't discovered it. And after a lifetime of searching for the answer, I can't tell you what it means to have finally found it through you... For this I offer my most profound thanks.

If you have any questions concerning my experiences or believe that I could be of any help to you, please feel free to contact me.

Yours in Honesty,

GS

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